a 43-year-old single gay guy, I recently had my first spanking
experience and am now feeling extreme guilt and self-loathing.
I was in a very long-term vanilla relationship for most of
my adult life and never got to experience anything remotely
kinky, but I’ve had an interest in it.
Long story short, I answered an online personal ad, went to
this guy’s house, and let him paddle me (he had a lot of spanking
equipment). I quickly blew and quickly left. There was no
sex other than me jerking myself while getting hit. Now I
feel just awful. It’s not the spanking itself, but rather
the anonymous nature of what I did. This type of hookup is
just not my thing, as I am used to sex in the context of a
loving, committed relationship. I honestly feel like I’ve
let myself down, like I dropped my standards, and I fear I’m
sliding down that slippery slope into a life of anonymous,
kinky encounters. I’ve never wanted to be one of “those guys.”
I know that sounds judgmental, but it’s how I feel and it’s
Right now I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I feel like puking
all the time. I can’t talk to any of my friends about this—I’m
too embarrassed. Please help put my mind at ease. Please tell
me if getting spanked with a hand and paddles is risky for
any sexually transmitted infections. Also, what can I do to
deal with this guilt? I swear I’m not exaggerating here, and
I really do need someone to talk to about this.
Want Anonymous Thrashings
no way you contracted a sexually transmitted infection during
that spanking session, SWAT, so just calm the fuck down, OK?
Now . . .
You lived a little, SWAT. You had a little sexual adventure.
You took a very short walk on the mild side of the wild side.
And you learned something important about yourself in the
process: Just having your kink indulged isn’t enough.
You need your kink indulged in the context of a loving, committed
relationship. You want to be spanked by someone you love and
who loves you. That’s just how you’re wired. And luckily for
you, there are lots of good, decent, quality guys out there
who are into spanking and interested in loving, committed
Don’t believe me?
You’re one of those guys, SWAT. You are living proof that
a guy can be relationship material and also be into spanking.
Put yourself out there, put your kink out there, and you’ll
meet other guys just like you.
I want a human pet. The human pet must become a dog.
Once in pup mode, my pet will wear a butt-plug tail, a collar,
and paw mitts. My pet will not speak anything other than its
assigned safe word. Its communications will be limited to
barking, moaning, licking, wagging its tail, etc. The whole
point is that, when done right, there is a dog shaped like
a human but the shape is the only thing that isn’t dog about
my pet. The pet becomes so completely a dog that I wonder
if it is bestiality to have sex with my dog/human pet.
vegans swallow?” used to be both the most annoying question
and the most frequently asked question in the sex-advice business.
Now it’s just the most frequently asked.
Some people consider their pets to be “members of the family,”
but there’s nothing incestuous about fucking your dog. There’s
something sick and wrong about it, of course, but it’s not
incest. Similarly, a human pretending to be a dog is still
a human, FDL, so having sex with your dog/human pet isn’t
bestiality and never will be. I hope that doesn’t ruin it
I’m a 19-year-old bisexual female, and my current girlfriend
and I have been together about three months. She is pressuring
me to come out to my family. I still live at home with my
very Catholic parents, and I’m not in a good enough financial
position to move out. If I were to come out to them, I would
want ample distance between us and I wouldn’t want to be depending
on them for a dwelling, school payments, auto insurance, etc.
My girlfriend and I get along great, we are having a lot of
fun together, and I wouldn’t want to lose her. But she says
that she can’t be with me if I am ashamed of our relationship.
I just don’t know what to do. Am I being a total cunt for
hiding our relationship from my family? Or is she the total
Living In Temporary Secrecy
the cunt, CLITS, totally.
The reasons you’ve given her for not coming out to your family
right this minute—fear of being retaliated against financially,
fear of losing your home, fear of derailing your education—are
not only legit, CLITS, they’re the only legit reasons to postpone
coming out to your family. Unless your girlfriend can feed
you, clothe you, house you, and cover your tuition, she shouldn’t
be pressuring you to risk your future for the sake of a three-month
Finally, CLITS, it seems to me that the last thing a young
lady with a pair of controlling assholes for parents needs
is a controlling asshole for a girlfriend. Just sayin’.
Does asexuality actually exist? My partner’s younger
brother claims to be asexual, but I think he’s just a maladjusted
little shit and that he’s intimidated by the thought of sex.
must exist, TSIL, seeing as it has its own homepage—www.asexuality.org—where
you can read this:
people have the same emotional needs as anyone else, and like
[those] in the sexual community we vary widely in how we fulfill
those needs. Some asexual people are happier on their own,
others are happiest with a group of close friends. Other asexual
people have a desire to form more intimate romantic relationships,
and will date and seek long-term partnerships. Asexual people
are just as likely to date sexual people as we are to date
I’ll probably be accused of asexophobia for suggesting that
asexuals who date “sexual people” are obligated to disclose
their asexuality preferably on the first date and certainly
no later than the third date. Asexuals may have the same emotional
needs as anyone else, but most of us sexuals—heterosexuals,
homosexuals, bisexuals—expect to have our emotional and sexual
needs met in our “intimate romantic relationships,” thanks,
and we’re going to want to know if that’s not in the cards
before we get involved, not after. Someone who is incapable
of meeting a sexual’s needs has no business dating a sexual
in the first place, if you ask me. At the very least, asexuality
must be disclosed. And I’m still trying to wrap my head around
out how to flirt, to be intimate, or to be monogamous in nonsexual
relationships can be challenging . . .”
Um . . . since monogamy is understood to mean sexual exclusivity—you
don’t fuck other people—I’m not sure how you define monogamy
in a sexless relationship. Does your asexual partner promise
not to not fuck other people?
As for your brother-in-law, TSIL, I don’t see what his asexuality
and/or hang-ups have to do with you. If you’re prying into
your BIL’s sex life, TSIL, I’d say he’s not the only maladjusted
little shit in the family.
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